Well, here I am, nearing the end, getting larger by the day. In some ways it feels like I've been pregnant forever (Feb seems like so long ago) and 2 months still seems quite far away, but I know that it will be here before I know it. I think I'm still in a bit of denial.
I am not one to slow down, but this pregnancy has put me to an almost sceeching halt. Never before have I felt so physically and mentally exhausted. The usual response when I mention this is "well, you have 3 kids to look after", but that's not it. Yes, I have 3 kids to look after, but they're all old enough to do for themselves. There are no diapers to change, mouths to feed, or little bodies to bathe like the last time I did this. If I wanted, I could bark out orders from my sofa, never lifting a finger. In fact, many days when we all get home in the afternoon I go into my room for a little nap. That little nap helps a lot.
Perhaps some of my mental fatigue is my own fault. I feel guilty for not being able to do more...and I HATE having to depend on others. I want to do more, and I hold dear those things which I can still do, like waking the kids up in the morning and picking them up from school. I used to hate picking them up from school, but now it's my favorite part of the day. I love seeing them run out out to greet me and the conversations we have on the way home.
Health-wise, this may be one of my healthiest pregnancies. I have no aches to complain about, my swelling has been minimal, and I don't have gestational diabetes. That last one was a shocker considering that I had it with my last two. I'm also very surprised that my swelling hasn't been more severe, especially in this heat (my GOD, the heat!!). My ankles are just now starting to disappear at the end of the day, but overall it hasn't been too bad. I think the worst swelling has been in my face (lovely ;-)) Sometimes when I look in the mirror I barely recognize myself. Getting dressed in the morning has become more of a challenge, as most of my maternity tops no longer cover my belly. At this point in the game I'm not adding to my wardrobe, so I'll just have to make do.
As much as I've not "enjoyed" this pregnancy (i've never enjoyed ANY pregnancy), I do know that it is all worth it. I am blessed. Once this little girl makes her debut, I'm sure we won't be able to imagine our lives without her!